here are our creative dreams manifested in edible form
we make these beauties from organic, gluten free, vegan, and locally harvested ingredients/ we use coconut oil, NYS maple, and gluten free rolled oats as the base to most of our bars/ these ingredients have a long history of healing stomach, nerve, and gut issues
we create based on intuition, flavor, and seasonality/ we pull our inspiration from various cultural and food traditions: polynesian use of sweet rice and coconut in their desserts; scandinavian use of oats, nuts, and seed to create their dense hearty loaves and crackers; scottish use of digestives, biscuits, and bars in their humble dessert traditions; south asian use of potently infused roots, herbs, and vegetables to honor and support the mind-body connection; brazilian use of tapioca and cassava to create grain free wraps, breads, and rolls; and american herbalists who make healing concoctions that focus on plant energy, synergy, and beauty
we grow herbs, flowers, and vegetables in our home gardens/ these beauties are specifically tended to and harvested for the business and for our personal use
we bring flower bouquets to market, we infuse our bars-breads-crackers with herbs, we decorate our treats with edible flowers, we use vegetables and herbs for our catering clients, we make medicinal salves and oils with these friends, to be enjoyed year-round
another tier of happy belly, beyond the capitalistic structure, is to engage with our local ecosystem in a more sustainable way/ we intentionally grow organic plants and vegetables, use local organic compost, and we regularly add healthy worms to our beds/ we intentionally work with local perennials; by repopulating our yards with native and threatened species, we increase local biodiversity and create a more sustainable habitat for the pollinators that find us on their routes
reach out out reach
love is the absolute highest vibration
as a collective we can amplify the power and reach of our individual voices/
we will use the collective to empower our fellow sisters and brothers in need/
reach out / out reach is a weekly equal energy exchange program intended to bring healing and support to our global community through our love of food
each week we will create a unique baked good that honors the ingredients, the flavors, and the food traditions of a particular region of our world
all funds from the sale of these bars will go to organizations who are working to promote growth, awareness, connectivity, and respect within their communities
at each farmers market we will feature information about the organization we have chosen for that week/ during each farmers market we will provide samples of the baked good and talk with customers about the organization/ and after each farmers market we will post on our social media about our collective contribution
So its probably the most misunderstood feeling we deal with on the regular. We're living in a time where emotions are encouraged to be sanitized-- too much "focus on the positive", "power of attraction", "love and light" bullshit. I fell victim to the good vibe tribe for a really long time. These concepts enslaved me, divorced me from myself, and kept me from feeling my humanity. I couldn't hold that space for myself-- that deep understanding and compassion for whichever way I showed up. And, in turn, I was unable to hold that space for others.
Those phrases keep us in line, encouraging us to suppress our more complicated feelings in an effort to stay calm and peaceful and joyous. It's a fucking lie.
Fear, shame, guilt, anger, embarrassment, and disgust... are all emotions we're taught to stay above. Taught to be better than. Taught to imprison. Our society chooses to not teach productive pathways to express our anger. We are shown that it's too heavy to externalize-- inevitably leading to internalization, repression, and shame. It's not something we are comfortable working with, sitting in, and getting to know.
After losing Callum, years of anger rose to the surface. Because my emotions were all too strong to "manage" I just let them come. I allowed myself to be wild and untamed. To scream and rage (thank you Brandon🙏). All with an unabiding trust. In a hope that I would get to its source and to its truth. Getting to that place, seeing it as a protective measure, helped me make peace with this most complicated emotion.
Anger is a fire. Anger is a response. Anger is a motivator. Anger is an honest and true experience of perceived injustice and disrespect. It is the strong and valid response to a personal and/or a collective violation.
It is the spirit within us that speaks wisdom and digs in and screams "NO". That spirit will endlessly fight to protect our sovereignty. That spirit knows wrong from right and will stand beside their morals. That spirit is angry. She will be listened to and respected, honored and loved. She is a part of our story and the clearest vision for our future. She is ready to be heard. Are you angry?
A quick PSA: anger and aggression are typically conflated, however they are wholly different. One is an emotion, one is a behavior. One can be constructive, the other can be destructive. When aggression is turned on ourselves and others it is abuse. Do not stand for abuse. Love yourself more and do the work is requires to get right with yourself.
Morning magician with the tools of her trade in the space she creates: I have been playing with words. Reversing their order to see an other side-- shining some light and allowing for just a little more breathing room. Some of the word shifts have subtle changes, others are seismic. The one I've been dancing with is: work life and life's work.
I have been given a unique opportunity to undo a lot. It's a harrowing and heart opening process. It happens when you let grief take you into it's depths. But it's a deep and dark sea.
I've made the trip a few times, both voluntarily and involuntarily. This time is the most painful, the most scary, and it holds the most treasured rewards. Grief and I are dredging. To get to those depths-- to reveal the deepest and darkest see-- you have to trust the process. You need to remind yourself that you will come up for air. The light will get brighter. You will resurface.
In that underwater space you begin to find that every relationship, every behavior, every habit, every interaction is up for review. Things that are precious, things that are close to your heart-- the untouchables-- are now exposed. In death, nothing is off the table. You find yourself an open book. What is meant to survive will and what needs to be put to bed will go to sleep.
I have defined myself by the work I put into the world. No matter the scope: picking a pint of currants on the farm as a young teenager carries the same weight as filling this week's massive wholesale orders. Work is a point of pride. A source of integrity. A purpose. So, during this insane review, I knew my work life would be on the chopping block. I delayed as long as I could. Ignored the stirrings that bubbled up to the point the pot overflowed. I was terrified to let go of Happy Belly. But I knew that if it didn't fit in this new life, I didn't want it. Letting go is not easy.
That's when I heard the reorder of words: "work life is life's work".
My mind has been blown.
How many of us are happy with our work? What holds us back from stepping into our essential and natural power? How can we help you see yourself clearer? What will it take for us to change? We are enough.
"I don't know how you guys are doing it. I would never be able to do that. I'm not that strong."
I'm moving through grief by opening up and talking about it. That is what has helped.
It has been raw and painful to talk about the death of Callum, but we have faced the truth head on. I believed and trusted it would be worthwhile and therapeutic. We believed in ourselves and the kindness of those around us.
It is a leap of faith every time I have to tell someone we lost our baby. Sometimes the best thing to do is to believe in yourself and just jump.
You can handle much more than you think.
we channel pure, clean, and healing energy into everything we create
monica is studied and trained in magical awakenings (level 8) and usui reiki (level 2)/ brandon is studied and trained in magical awakenings (level 3) and two styles of martial arts: soo bahk do (3rd dan) and isshin ryu (1st dan)/ we are both studied and trained in plant medicine work, sacred song, intuitive herbalism, and shamanic reiki
magical awakenings is an energetic system channeled by brett bevell/ it is based on the teachings of merlin (as archetype and incarnation), the holy grail (vessel of miracles), and lady of the lake (goddess of the divine)/ healing sessions are adaptive and fun, powerful and intuitive/ this system is gentle enough to shift everyday issues and strong enough to reach karmic threads/ it always holds the container of love and compassion, channels the powers of the natural world, and the limitless healing of magical beings
usui reiki is an energetic system channeled by mikao usui/ it is a system of symbols and hand positions that merge both spiritual consciousness and life energy (rei and ki) to encourage healing, relaxation, and stress reduction/ the practitioner grounds themselves, opens up to universal energy, allows it to flow through their hands, and treats themselves, other, animals, or objects
soo bahk do is a korean martial art founded by hwang kee/ it's roots are based in the concepts of history, philosophy, tradition, discipline-respect, and technique/ it is a body based energy system that utilizes the hip as the source for the most effective and powerful techniques/ the path bends toward seeing what your body, mind, and spirit are fully capable of both collectively and individually/ classes are structured, demanding, energy intensive, and fun
isshin ryu is an okinawan martial art founded by tatsuo shimabuku/ it's techniques are based on okinawan peasants defending themselves against japanese military occupation/ there is extensive weapons training: bow, sai, nunchaku, tonfa
monica is actively offering intuitive energy healing sessions/ sessions run a little over one hour, they are $80, and are done in either our home or yours/ we are also open to bartering/ contact if you're interested